Forgive and forget.

They say forgive and forget
but you say its only easy when said.
how can I forgive someones who's done so much wrong.
Who's made me look a fool
whilst everyone else was right all along.
Stop for a second, just stop right there.
You know more than me that's just not fair.
We all make mistakes, some more harder to bear.
Forgiveness isn't easy,
I say that without any difficulty.
But ask yourself what has you restricted.
Is it the fear of being weak?
Or is it your arrogance that has you conflicted?
Put those thoughts to a side,
for then mercy is what you shall obtain.
Do not let this hatred become a burden
for it could be you in that situation.
Our religion teaches love and compassion
and not rage or acts of resentment.
Our Lord forgives every second of every single day,
trust me forgiveness is the only way.
Leave the past behind
and focus on the present.
They say the first to forgive is the strongest,
and the first to forget is the happiest.
To forgive and forget could leave you distressed,
but show them that's what you do best,
and its nothing more than just a simple test.
Do your bit and I promise you Allah will do the rest.

The thought of giving up...

Don't know how to put this to words. I don't even know how the thought even crossed my mind, but I guess when your frustrated you'll take it out anything..  Anyways here it goes..

There are times in your life where everything and everyone just seem to upset or frustrate you; I guess a phase that everyone goes through. The smallest thing would upset me, the smallest thing would annoy me and this time I took it out on my blog. I had come to the conclusion that getting rid of it was the only way. I've been so reluctant to even upload this one. To some people it might come as a surprise, but honestly speaking it really shouldn't. I guess all writers go through a "rough patch." But that wasn't my reason. I just got fed up with myself. I guess I was slowly losing my confidence. My friends, my loved ones and even strangers would tell me how amazing my work was and I was just stressing over nothing. I appreciate their support but what's the point of posts being published if the author isn't satisfied with what's she's posting? Their comments would go through one ear and come out the other. I would spend hours crossing out, deleting or even ripping to shreds pieces of work. Right now if I scroll down my post lists there are so many draft posts, some finished, some unfinished. For me they are just not good enough. I would read through my blog and all I would want to do is delete it, act as if "Muffled Muslimah" never existed, make it something of the past.
At the time I thought I would feel better, I thought it was a way to remove my grief, but I guess I was being stupid and that's only putting it lightly. Writing is how I express myself, writing is what makes me feel free, writing is what makes me, ME. In that split second of frustration I had forgotten what writing had given me. Writing had given me the voice I thought I never had. Writing gave me the power to express myself without caring about what people thought. Just that feeling of being able to let everything out is just sometimes all I needed. If I stop writing, oppressed is what I shall become. Without writing I wouldn't be the person I am and Alhamdulilliah I'm grateful for that. So what if I'm not good at? So what if I'm not always satisfied with it? That person was right when they said I should reevaluate. I didn't start this blog for satisfaction or for the fame. I started this blog because I was fed up remaining quiet, I was fed up of just being a bystander. Whether people listen or ignore what I have to say does not bother me, at least I know I tried. "Muffled Muslimah" is part of me and it's just not something I can remove with a delete button, I know that now because the thought of it had me in tears. I'm a writer, writing is what I do and what I love. Whatever I do or say can NEVER change that.

(To those that stood by me when I was being that pessimistic cow, I don't know how to thank you. I just pray that Allah blesses you and rewards you with the best of Jannah Inshallah ❤ )

Smile your pains away..

A smile.
Something so simple,
but something so big.
Something so natural,
but something so pretend.
Something that hides so much,
but that reveals so little.
Smile because you can
and not because you need to.
I know your hurting,
I know I can't take that pain away.
But smile, so for once you can feel okay.
Smile because your problems aren't forever,
smile because Allah won't leave you in vain.
Smile to scare those unnecessary tears away.
Smile because there will be a day when this pain becomes history,
nothing more than just part of your memory.
Allah won't burden you with something you can't take,
trust me that isn't a mistake.
Broken is what you may have become,
but I promise you happiness is what is to come.
Patience, that's all it needs
and with trust in Allah you will be freed.
But for now smile you pain away.
Don't let it take the best of you,
because life to short for you to be worrying.
No body promised you tomorrow or the day after,
so be in the moment and spend it with smiles
and fill it with laughter.

To all my Brothers and Sisters and out there, keep on smiling no matter the weather :)