The expected unexpected....

I want to talk about my Niqab.

Since forever I would look at Niqabi's and envy them for their beauty. I would admire them and always say in my head "Inshallah one day." They have always been an inspiration, even to this day.  Although I wear my Niqab I still look at the others and admire their beauty. But why can't everyone think like that? I'm not saying all women should wear the Niqab. NOOO, this is a free choice, its what you feel comfortable with and at the end of the day most would see it as it being an act of Sunnah so its not Fardh.

But this is not my point. Yes I expected weird looks and constant stares from the non-Muslims, the ones that don't understand and I have to admit, it takes a while getting used to it. Until now I don't know how to react, when a huge man just stares with a dirty look on his face. It's scary. The media has done quite well in making us a target, I just pray that Allah strengthens the Iman of the Niqabi's and that He grants them great Sabr. 

But I don't want to talk about the ignorance of the Islamphobists. I want to talk about our Ummah. The part that I least expected. Never did I think there would be certain individuals that would downgrade the sisters who have the courage to do such an act especially in the West. We as a Ummah should know the reason behind a sister choosing to cover. There should only be one reason. This sister has decided to dress in a way of only pleasing Allah. That's it. On so many occasions I've had individuals in our Ummah making remarks or asking unnecessary questions. "Ohh your wearing the Niqab? You don't want to attract unnecessary attention, now do you?" or "you know what the media are saying, you don't want to be considered as a terrorist now do?" This is all coming from Muslim individuals. I'm not saying this is everyone,( Jazakallah Khair to those who have supported me on my decision from the beginning, May Allah reward you) but its not right. 

Yes we have become the target of the media, Yes we have been labelled as the enemy, but we need to prove to them that they are wrong. We need to show them the true meaning of being a Muslim. If we are putting our own sisters down, how are we ever going to be united? These sisters need encouraging not downgrading. In order to stand up against the oppression of society especially in the West we need to stick by each other. Just because a sister covers her face and a brother walks around with a long beard and his trousers rolled up does not make them an extremist. It does not automatically make them "religious" or a "so called Sheikh", you and me both know it does not work like that.

Instead of making sly remarks or backbiting about each other we can make D'ua for each other, we can motivate each other. We can help one another. Wallahi competing and envying each other is going to lead to nothing more than utter corruption. If we as a Ummah do not respect and love each other for the sake of Allah, how could we ever expect any different from the non-believers.   

At the end of the day we are all Muslim, we all bear witness that Allah is one, Don't put each other down. I know its not easy getting along with everyone. I understand that. But do it for the sake of the Almighty. Show them that we as an Ummah are better than this. 

We as Muslims don't seem to have a voice in the world, that's been made very clear. But I promise you if we all look pass our differences and disagreements  WE CAN GIVE ISLAM A VOICE. All it takes is, is becoming united. United for the sake of Islam. United for the sake of Allah.

وَاعْتَصِمُوا بِحَبْلِ اللَّهِ جَمِيعًا وَلَا تَفَرَّقُوا ۚ وَاذْكُرُوا نِعْمَتَ اللَّهِ عَلَيْكُمْ إِذْ كُنْتُمْ أَعْدَاءً فَأَلَّفَ بَيْنَ قُلُوبِكُمْ فَأَصْبَحْتُمْ بِنِعْمَتِهِ إِخْوَانًا وَكُنْتُمْ عَلَىٰ شَفَا حُفْرَةٍ مِنَ النَّارِ فَأَنْقَذَكُمْ مِنْهَا ۗ كَذَٰلِكَ يُبَيِّنُ اللَّهُ لَكُمْ آيَاتِهِ لَعَلَّكُمْ تَهْتَدُونَ

And hold firmly to the rope of Allah all together and do not become divided. And remember the favor of Allah upon you - when you were enemies and He brought your hearts together and you became, by His favor, brothers. And you were on the edge of a pit of the Fire, and He saved you from it. Thus does Allah make clear to you His verses that you may be guided. 

(Al-Imran 3:103) 

"FINDING"

 It's amazing what you can do with words to show the power of emotions. Coming up with this poem took longer than expected. I guess you can never put to words the feeling of really finding the One and Only. يا الله keep us on the straight path. اللهم امين 

There were times in my life where I would wake up asking why?

 Why me? Why now? Why ever? 

Thinking would lead to more thinking and more thinking. 

The problem was, talking was just not for me, 

Little did I know, talking was the ONLY way for me. 

To whom you may ask? 

That is a simple question which entails a simple answer. 

I found the one and only, 

I found Ar-Rahman, Ar-Rahim, Al-Malik. Al-Alim. 

I did not need to be ashamed or afraid because Allah was always there for me. 

Those times where I would feel alone were no longer there, 

Because deep down I knew something was there. 

There to protect me, to guide me, to love me and most importantly, to FORGIVE ME. 

Forgive me my lord for the times I've wronged you, 

For the times that I've gone astray. 

Forgive me for the small sins, the big sins. 

The sins that are beyond compare. 

Before I found you, I never used to care 

Things did not matter to me 

Whatever I did had no purpose. 

Finding you has brought change. 

Change in how I feel. Change in what I believe. 

I no longer feel deceived by what I thought was the reality, for what I knew and what I had did not comply with what I believe. 

It lacked the ALMIGHTY, it felt like a conspiracy. 

Why me? Why now? Why ever? 

The questions I used to wake up with were not forever, 

But just a phase of emptiness, which is now filled with something far greater. 

O ALLAH! Make me steadfast for verily you are the answers to my prayers.

(Muffled Muslimah)

PROBLEMSSSS....

Its funny how one day you wake up and it seems like everything has come tumbling down whilst just yesterday everything was perfectly in place. Your plans don't seem like plans, your dreams become long gone and all you want to do is hide and never come out. Have we forgotten that everything is temporary, me, you, your parents.

THIS DUNYA IS COMPLETELY TEMPORARY.

 So if everything is temporary so are our problems. We as individuals go crazy if just our phone battery is going too die whilst every 3 seconds a human being is dying. We have become so attached to the worldly means, one problem takes over everything. Have we forgotten that it is a test from the Almighty? We are constantly being tested and it depends on our Sabr and Imaan to prove that we can go through this. NO ONE said it was easy, but that does not mean we can not try. Every test that we go through is a way to help us back to Allah, to bring us closer to the only thing that is permanent. It is a chance to check our Imaan levels and strengthen us in our our Deen.
              YES its going to be a struggle and you may think there is no way out, but I promise you there always is. All you need to do is trust Allah (subhanahu wa ta'ala), ask from the All-Giving, The Most Merciful. Maybe that one D'ua could be the solution to all your problems.
            Remember Allah (subhanahu wa ta'ala) is the All-Hearing and "HE KNOWS WHATS IN EVERY HEART" (al-mulk 67:13). If you D'ua is not answered immediately know that maybe its not good for you at that and Allah (subhanahu wa ta'ala) knows whats best for you. Allah (subhanahu wa ta'ala) may remove something from your life just to place something  better and more beneficial, something that will increase your rewards in the eyes of Allah (subhanahu wa ta'ala).

           وَاللَّهُ خَيْرُ الْمَاكِرِينَ     

      (And Allah is the Best of All Planners) 

(al-Anfal 8:30)

May Allah grant us solutions to all our problems no matter how small or how big and increase our Imaan for the best.

اللهم امين

"Freedom of Speech"

I wrote this poem after the events that took place in Chapel Hill. May Allah grant them the best of Jannah. اللهم امين

You talk about freedom of speech,

but there's a difference between violation and expressing your own view.

you walk around mocking our prophet,

if only you knew.

your words and your remarks have no value

because we don't need you.

The greatness of our Prophet (SAW) is beyond you and me

so no matter what you do,

just know we ain't the same as you.

Islam is perfect, without no flaw.

Muslims ain't terrorists that's something you cannot ignore.

you pick on the minorities thinking your all slick,

but in your minds, you know you are all sick

it is not the Muslims that go around killing innocent lives in places like Iraq, Sudan, Palestine and Finland.

you say you are civilized,

but you disregard human lives.

not only does our Ummah die in civil war,

But now in Chapel Hill they are shot at their front door.

we cant imagine the pain and suffering that family has to go through.

My dear Brothers and Sister are Duas are with you.

You don't need justice in this Dunya

because I promise you in the hands of Allah nothing can hurt you.

My Ummah we need to stand up,

before bad comes to worst (not saying that it hasn't).

But with Taqwah in Allah,

Me and you are not going down

Not now not EVER.

(Muffled Muslimah)

From the start...

 السلام عليكم وا رحمة الله وبركاته

This is the Muffled Muslimah. As people the one thing I've realized, is that we know there is so much to say about what is going on in the world, what is going on in the media and what is going on with ourselves as individuals. But for some reason, silence is what we seem to prefer. How long are we going to remain like this and play the role of the bystander? I cannot, not anymore. For too long I've stood around whilst all hell broke loose and ignored what is in front me. 

Instead of coming together as one Ummah and focusing on how we can bring change, we seem to be picking on each other. How can we demand for change when we refuse to change ourselves for the better. My Ummah we need to change our attitude towards each other, if we can change this and with Tawaqal in Allah we can change everything else. إن شاء الله

It was said by our beloved Prophet (sallallahu 'alayhi wa sallam)

“The most beloved to me and the closest to me on the Day of Resurrection will be those of you who have the best attitudes." (At-Tirmidhi)

As your sister in Islam I would like you to read my thoughts and understand what I'm feeling. These will be expressed in rants, poems and most importantly through the Hadith and the Sunnah. Please feel free to comment and share.

May Allah (subhanahu wa ta'ala) accept my intentions and as well as yours. 

اللهم امين

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